The Andy Rau Band

Americana music... an eclectic blend folk, rock and bluegrass from Southern California

Americana
an eclectic blend of folk, rock and bluegrass styles

LYRICS    Penny Moon
ALL SONGS WRITTEN BY ANDY RAU
PURPLE RAVEN MUSIC BMI
ALL RIGHTS RESERVED USED BY PERMISSION

HALF A HEART
woke up this morning with this pain in my chest
went to the doctor under duress
he took a picture came back depress
saying son you've lost half your heart

half a heart is for feeling blue
the other part is for a love that's true
i'll trade the half you took for the half you left
it contains my happiness

went to my shrink sat down in his chair
the tears rolled down while i pulled at my hair
well don't you know this life isn't fair
sounds like you've lost half you heart

half a heart is for feeling blue
the other part is for a love that's true
i'll trade the half you took for the half you left
it contains my happiness

went to my lawyer asking what should i do
he shrugged his shoulders said there's no one to sue
maybe a will we can split it in two
now that you've lost half your heart

half a heart is for feeling blue
the other part is for a love that's true
i'll trade the half you took for the half you left
it contains my happiness

 

IF YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN
in the middle of my life
in the middle of a dream
i thought i'd have it all worked out by now
if you know what i mean
in the middle of a fight
in the middle of my scream
i thought i'd be alright somehow
if you know what i mean

Here i go on the road again
packed my banjo in my case of self-esteem
here i am all alone again with my worn out plans
if you know what i mean

people that i know
people that i've seen
smiling faces everywhere i go
if you know what i mean
outside i laugh inside i bleed
cover up this pain for a while
if you know what i mean

Here i go on the road again
packed my banjo in my case of self-esteem
here i am all alone again with my worn out plans
if you know what i mean

i once had a soul
she sat here with me
so i dreamed about tomorrow
if you know what i mean
but she cut me lose
said she needed to be free
ah what's the use
if you know what i mean

Here i go on the road again
packed my banjo in my case of self-esteem
here i am all alone again with my worn out plans
if you know what i mean

 

KATHLEEN
i never know how much i'd miss you
i never knew how much i'd cry
i never knew what i was getting into
when i stepped out of your life

kathleen kathleen
last night i saw you in my dreams
kathleen kathleen
why did i ever leave

i never knew love i never felt love
until i let go of its plans
i never need love until i leave love
i let it slip right through my hands

kathleen kathleen
last night i saw you in my dreams
kathleen kathleen
why did i ever leave

she told me that happiness
did not want us to part
she was right and now i'm left
with this broken heart

follow the signs down the highway
they're my only company
a lonely fool going my way
guess that's all i'll ever be

kathleen kathleen
last night i saw you in my dreams
kathleen kathleen
why did i ever leave

 

FEELING LIKE THIS
i remember when she told me
shedd fallen in love
i remember how she'd hold me
she couldn't get enough

but now she's gone
we do not exist
how can i go on
when i'm feeling like this

we'd hold our hands together
she'd talk about her day
how she'd made plans for forever
she always talked that way

but now she's gone
we do not exist
how can i go on
when i'm feeling like this

she said surprise i'm leaving you
surprise we are through
surprise this gift's for real
and i don't care how you feel

a once strong heart grows feeble
i've never felt this low
'cause after soaring like an eagle
it'' hard to walk this road

but now she's gone
we do not exist
how can i go on
when i'm feeling like this



THINGS CHANGE
like a nickel a railroad track
i was doomed waiting for impact
like a river rolling down to the sea
no choice in the matter it's downhill for me

things change
things can change like the weather
things change
things can change for the better

like a clown on a tight rope wire
stand up straight or fall into the fire
like a gambler playing roulette
the house is all gone you place another bet

things change
things can change like the weather
things change
things can change for the better

find a lover like the one i found
find another turn your life around
when i hug here i can feel my heart pound
things are looking up i don't have to look down
times were getting tough i was losing ground
now it's just enough to feel her heart pound

like a road with a dead end sign
no where to go nowhere to hide
like a teardrop in the falling rain
lost in the crowd no one to blame

things change
things can change like the weather
things change
things can change for the better

things change
things can change when we're together
things change
things can change for the better
 
 

IS THIS REALLY HAPPENING
i thought i'd never feel this way
thought i'd never have to say
there's a girl i am thinking of
never thought the time would come
to be alone would be no fun
but here i am now that i'm in love

i'm in love with you
i'm in love it's true
is this really happening
or just a dream i am in
love with you

never felt another's hand
felt so right felt so planned
never did believe in destiny
but it came knocking at my door
tried to hide like before
but it turned the key and gave me what i need

what am i gonna do with my other life
with that lonely fool with those lonely nights

i'll take it down to the goodwill store
i don't need it anymore
maybe someone else can use my past
someone like i used to be
someone who's too blind to see
love's the only answer that life has

i'm in love with you
i'm in love it's true
is this really happening
or just a dream i am in
love with you

 

UNHAPPY GIRL
she's not a happy girl
she's not a happy girl
unhappy girl unhappy world
she's not a happy girl

she thought that life would be there waiting
nothing very complicating
guess those books and movies were a lie
she thought that fame was for the taking
not prepared for her heart breaking
dancing in the smoke beneath the lights

she's not a happy girl
she's not a happy girl
unhappy girl unhappy world
she's not a happy girl

all the things  that she had planned
fell apart strand by strand
with so-called friends right there by her side
she left la and went back home
now she sits there all alone
her novels and her movies standing by

she's not a happy girl
she's not a happy girl
unhappy girl unhappy world
she's not a happy girl



MAKE NO MISTAKE
make no mistake about it
for god's sake i could not love another more
i lie awake fearing that you doubt it
don't my actions prove how much i'd lose
if you walked through that door

you say my love is just my desperation
say my love is my exaggeration
but open up your eyes
who's that that stands beside you
open up you life
who's hand is propped behind you
it's mine every time

make no mistake about it
for god sake i could not love another more
i lie awake fearing that you doubt it
don't my actions prove how much i'd lose
if you walked through that door

what we need is some communication
lack of works just fuels our tribulation
so search your memory
who holds you when you're crying
look back and then you'll see
who cheers you when you''e trying
that's me on my knees

make no mistake about it
for god sake i could not love another more
i lie awake fearing that you doubt it
don't my actions prove how much i'd lose
if you walked through that door



L-O-V-E
i'm in love
you cast your spell on me
i'm in love
l-o-v-e

what about my empty plans
they've been had they don't understand
what about all my loneliness
guess it's something i'll learn to miss

i'm in love
you cast your spell on me
i'm in love
l-o-v-e

what about all the time i gave
to my tears and to my rage
guess it's hard to justify
all the years that passed me by

i got used to sorrow
i got used to pain
I used to beg and borrow with the rain
you walked by my window
the sun broke through the night
you replaced the shadows
with my life

i'm in love
you cast your spell on me
i'm in love
l-o-v-e